A Web Of Lies

Computer networks aren't the original virtual devices.
People are.
A boy may think he has a girlfriend...

but you girls know he really has a virtual girl...
the physical girl plus her girlfriends, sisters and mother!

Look closely. This is a diagram of a conspiracy. Information travels around about the boyfriend but he's excluded from knowledge or participation (until the wedding). Depending on the contextual congruity of the women, he might face an incomprehensible range of behavior. Girlfriend may follow Mom's advice on Monday, Sister's advice on Tuesday morning and her own judgement on Tuesday night.

Did I say "might face"?
It's "virtually" guaranteed!

If the boyfriend understands his girlfriend's true nature, it's not so bad. But if he's like most men, he thinks she is a single set of expections, beliefs, fears and aspirations.

I finally figured this out.
An incomprehensible situation now makes partial sense.

Women and men define "facts" and "truth" differently. Apparently "facts" aren't constant for women, they vary with context and immediate need. No one can know Reality, only their perception of it.

An incomprehensible situation makes even more sense.

A Web Of Lies

I've seen so many strange situations in the past few years. Hidden agendas and false assumptions create escalating confusion. The Information Age seems to create ambiguity and confusion instead of clarity and consistency. I thought it was due to increasing debt loads. I thought people were responding financial insecurity with deceit to protect their jobs.

Now I wonder if it's a function of the Information Economy. The true price and cost of information can't be calculated like commodities and manufactured goods and the pricing mechanism of the "free market" doesn't seem to be flushing out inefficiencies.

Perhaps constant misperception and deception are permanent changes to our culture.

Spudly Thoughts

I walked around the BSU campus for couple hours. I'm shocked at how much it's grown. The coeds seem younger than I remember, the average student age was 28 when I graduated.

I drove by our old house and blew a tire when I u-turned into the curb. I walked through the Boise mall afterwards, it was relatively quiet but the interior seemed different, more crowded. It's been almost ten years since my last visit.

I never expected to be back here. But I never expected to live in Vegas, Phoenix or Denver. There's now a PF Chang's downtown. I liked the Central in Kirkland because of the age group. I'm surprised that I'm liking Humping Hanna's for the same reason.

I had a goal, I wanted to build up the College of Technology through Federal R&D software grants, expand on my original grants (1992-1996) but it never came to pass. Walking through the hallways, I wonder if it could have. Maybe it was too ambitious, like me. That project was my biggest accomplishment in life but I wonder if anyone would remember it now.

No, I don't wonder. No one would remember. Perhaps a hazy recollection of "something".

I suppose I'll hike around the campus again, oogle coeds, hang out at Starbucks, play pool until evening and wander through the newer downtown clubs.

Mormons & Goths & Information

A hazard of working with information is that you develop a sense for information streams; when they're misrouted or incomplete or filled with bad data. Eventually even a guy like me transfers that "sense of bad data" into political savvy. I realized this in 1997 and since then I've distilled some basic rules -

"If someone's actions make no sense, then

a) they have information that you lack, or
b) you have information that they lack"

A related concept is The Conspiracy. Conspiracies control information flows so that one party can exploit the ignorance of other parties. And certain environments promote or hinder conspiracies based on information flows.

Where does this all lead? To a personal anecdote from 1997, of course! Why would you retain an employee who sabotaged your technical infrastructure? In my world, this makes no sense. It probably makes no sense in yours, either. So why would it happen?

Politics and conspiracies, that's why.

Two years later, I still couldn't understand what happened, so armed with the Internet and several thousand dollars, I bought credit records, birth records, employment and residence history and other obscure information which revealed that several co-workers and management were Mormon church members, some legal counsel and an investigator were also Mormon, that they were linked in other ways but most importantly, that the Employee Saboteur was Mormon. Not just a Mormon, but an illegimate fifth-generation offspring of Joseph Smith, founder of the Mormon church. Property ownership records implied incest and possible child abuse so I travelled to California to physically verify my suspicions.

Ahhh.
That four months of incomprehensible behavior suddenly made sense to me.

Since then, I've done a few other investigations. There's always a hidden reason for inexplicable behavior. For almost a year I've been in a situation with Seattle's Goth culture. I couldn't make sense of certain behavior. But I had missing information and poor assumptions. About women, specifically.

It makes sense to me now.
Most of it, at least.

I've discovered a couple new things about cults & conspiracies and disappointing realizations about myths which I thought were untrue.

My curiosity is satisfied.
But my heart is sad.

Things To Do

Revise Ideosphere model with granularity ideas

Court system - an attempt to centralize & standardize definitions in a world of decentralized rumor-mongering cults

Schramm Model - update it to show dynamic context and ramifications - PT and BSU info confusions as examples.

Still like to do that concordance measurement of Dawkins if I can figure out an easy way

Pool Time

Off to refine my billiard skills.
God help me.

It's a good thing I lost my retirement chance with BSU. Retirement would probably kill me before cancer or my wife.

Humping Hanna's

Humping Hanna's was the same as I remember from 1996. It even has the same house band.

An oriental man in business clothes studied my billiard skills for a while, then we struck up a game. He kicked my sorry ass 5-1. I was holding my own until he shattered my confidence in Game 3 by running six balls on the break.

Our only words were "nice shot" or "good game".

I spent the rest of Halloween at The Balcony. I'm too old for the crowd but I got some strange vibes. The Captain Morgan Rum girl eyed me, perhaps more in curiosity than lust. A repressed wife sent mixed messages for an hour, her boring husband was oblivious. I spoke briefly with Vanessa, a future knockout.

And for some reason, a gang of bi/lesbian women hung around me all night, laughing, hugging, making out, catching my eye every so often with a touch or comment.

I had no idea what to make of it.

Boise State College of Engineering

I visited the BSU College of Engineering yesterday, walking through the newer buildings, seeing the future that could have been. Staff turnover is surprisingly low after nine years (less than 50%?) and I saw many familiar faces.

No one recognized me.

One professor did a double-take but registered me as "a former student", I think.

My wife may be right; a university career could have been mundane, boring. I may have gotten bored after the ASPEN project. For years, I thought ASPEN was successful because of my work ethic and determination but now I wonder if it was because of my affiliation with the shadowy Mormon cabal within Idaho and Boise State. My wife didn't want that much in life, really. BSU is mostly to blame for her loss but I am, too. I trusted the wrong people to "do the right thing" and the success of ASPEN made me ambitious. Too ambitious.

My Mormon friends don't show up in my site logs yet.
They remain serenely unaware of my return to Boise, Idaho.

Book Meme

Meme Analysis for Modern Amazons: Warrior Women On-Screen...

I used the term "amazons" exclusively for all graphs. "Amazon", the company, (without an 's') produces a huge skew and is responsible for about 90% of all entries, regardless of secondary keywords.

Conclusion - Two data sources show a keyword peak in summer of 2006. I predict that sales will ramp up into Christmas and then fall off to new lows in summer 2007, barring some type of marketing gimmick or campaign. (Special disclosure - I occasionally check the Amazon book ranking and its latest behavior prompted this analysis.)

The Scene Of The Crime

I was here nine years ago... Boise State University. BSU gave me a college degree, three Federal grants in a successful project, adult-onset asthma and Bill Carlson, my sociopath.

In exchange, BSU tested my religious tolerance of Mormons and foiled my wife's dream of maple cabinets with black Pfaltzgraff dishes. The good news? Now I shoot pool instead of guns and I like poking coeds with my cue stick, yow yow! The bad news? My wife is a good shot, armed to the teeth and madder at BSU than me!

The coeds are cuter in a Starbucks! I was planning to play pool but first I might impersonate a visiting professor and cop some instructional feels, hey? Miss Baby Face sits across from me, dark, streaked kinky hair, knee-high leather boots and soft cotton black gaucho riding pants. Frowning face, though. Pouty lips.

Jury still out on this perp.

Disruptive Thoughts

I'm not a good schemer. I'm too direct. My actions appear to have more forethought than they do. I think I'm just good at exploiting consequences, which is not the same as planning them. My mistakes can be aggravating because people assume forethought in my actions.

The ALT community has communication issues. When does "no" mean "yes" and when does it really mean "no"? I guess I'm dense. I'm sure that a mind game started but I'm not sure that it ended. Maybe I missed a signal. Is the game deeper than I thought?

Or did the game end for everyone but me? I don't know. Perhaps I interpreted a coincidence as another mind game. Maybe I was meant to do that but I can't be sure.

Have you ever ranked yourself in the seven deadly sins?
I think I know where I stand.

My #1 sin, by a high margin, is lust.
My #2 sin is anger.
My #3 sin is pride, but only in the past few years.

I'm low on the remaining sins.

Why are there so many schemes now?
Why is there so much resentment and jealousy?
Was it always there and I wasn't aware?
Did something change?

It's not confined to the ALT community. It's in the workplace, in schools, government, even in churches. My ex-wife used to call it "workplace warfare". I've tried to measure it, to confirm my impressions with quantified graphs, to be sure it's a real phenomenon. There are changes occurring in the Ideosphere, but I can't connect them into a predictive pattern. For instance, "sex" has increased in the past six months and "money" has a discrete rise that coincides with the home builder stock crash.

I have no conclusions, just observations.

New Hit Count High

Another hit-count record, 24K hits in the past two days.
It looks like Sun's roller failed to reset yesterday's count.

Dawkins Versus Me

(I might try to finish this outlandish entry today (10-29-2006) with some concordance analysis of Dawkin's book versus my blog, to see if I can get a clear skew of noun usage (from Dawkins) versus verb usage (from me). Not a proof but the results may be interesting).

Why Memetics Theory Died Off

Many real-world structures are vectors; a two-part combination of value and direction. In linguistic terms, "noun" is equivalent to "value" and "verb" is equivalent to "direction". Examples of vectors -

Richard Dawkins coined the word "meme" in 1976. Over the next two decades, memetics (meme theory) was expanded on theoretical basis. Memes represent the vector value and their ideospheric propagation is the vector direction.

Original Noun-based Theoretical interpretation

I believe that Dawkins theory is primarily noun-based - static definitions or data structures. He had no empirical data or workable flow model to develop his theories against. I can't see that evolutionary theory is applicable. I've found historical examples of purely theoretical predictions about meme flow which, in retrospect, were quite wrong.

My Verb-based Empirical interpretation

My interpretation of memetics is based on my own background - electronics theory, network theory and empirical measurements across Internet data sources. My graphs and ideas are heavily skewed towards flow-based theories and empirical measurements.

Linux Meme

S-curve Methodology
Three-source Sampling Theory

I avoid memegraphs on open source products because their strange behavior is hard to interpret. However, I got curious about Red Hat Linux today so I ran graphs on Windows Vista versus Linux.

Caution: these graphs imply ominous outcomes for Linux.

My interpretation? In the United States, Linux is being marginalized as a specialty niche server. I didn't include the worldwide graphs, but Linux appears to have only a slightly better future. Predictably, Vista is ramping up and gaining mindshare and buzz.

The Linux curves seem clear.
These types of curves are indicative of a product which has topped out.
All three data sources show the same general results, although they sample from different Internet sources.

Kit Kat Klub

I've developed an interest for billiards, but arrived in Idaho too late so I ended up at the Kit Kat Klub as a last resort. The KKK is a cheesy, low-grade strip club but hey, it's Idaho so what can you expect? At least it was open until 2:00 AM.

The tables sucked.
The balls were pitted and small.
And the pool balls sucked, too.
Every stick in the house was crooked, including the billiard cues.

Even the strippers sucked, but not on the sticks. They were too young, too scrawny, drab and boring.

Egad.

I've reached a new point in my life. Not only do these clubs not turn me on, now they actively turn me off. I hope I'm not turning gay.

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I'm so dense when it comes to women.
I've made so many mistakes.

Faster, Faster WussyCat, WussyCat!

"I never try anything, I just do it!" - Tura Satana, in Faster Pussycat, Kill! Kill

I played a couple of Iranian students at pool at last night. I was buzzed but I kicked their ass, yeah! One old American and three shots of jaegermeister still beats two Iranian college students, five to zero, yeah!

But I didn't get the girl. A bit too much to ask out of a weird Canadian multicultural experience... plus they were way too young. Legal? yes. Appealing? Yes! Beddable? No, I think not.

Off to Idaho for awhile.
But I'll sit here at the Rialto and push a few more pool games before I go!